Tuesday, April 3, 2012, 10:24 PM

I think, I’ve been pretty much tolerant to things going around me. & I’ve tolerate 3.5 weeks during the uk/europe trip. It pretty much hit, or should I say exceed my limit of tolerant. For all the overseas trip I had so far, the companions so far, has been very good. I traveled with my awesome clique of friends in Nafa firstly to Shanghai for World Expo, it was my first overseas trip & it was definitely a memorable one. After graduation, I have another overseas trip to Bali, once again with my awesome group of friends from Nafa. We were all happy and very excited, & during our stay in Bali, we enjoyed each other’s company very very very much.

This trip however awesome it was, there is still some parts that dragged down my, okay fine I shall be honest, all of our mood.

This post is pretty much a way to let go of what I have been keeping in my mind & out of my mouth for awhile, because she’s a great friend honestly, and I do not want to hurt her feelings. But, I feel that she should know what’s going on, and why we are feeling the way we are. This being said, I feel that she does not know what she done/said has done any harm, because that’s the way she is. And it could be because we came from different background/culture.

1st of all, I have to say, yes I do have a very.. violent moodswings when it comes to missing out on my daily intake of coffee, or simply missing my lunch timing & I get seriously hungry and it affects my mood. But hey come on! It happens to everyone. What I don’t understand is, if you know that someone is already getting angry & agitated for whatever reason, you DO NOT go up to that person to try to further agitate her more. The best thing to do is to fake ignorance & leave that fucking person alone til she calms down. I mean, that’s the most basic thing right?

IE, I’m hungry so i get quiet & you know something is wrong when you see my black face. You either leave me alone, or find me some fucking food before I snap. You do not go around me, telling my friends “eh don’t go near Vanessa, she’s hungry, & when she is hungry she get angry & she is very scary”. It may seems fine to you, this sentence is also fine to me, but seriously, you don’t go pulling friends standing around far away from me & stop them from standing around me & keep emphasizing on how I’m so angry I will kill someone literally.

Come on, this is adding oil to the already burning flame.

& when the other friend can already see I’m going to snap any moment & she tries to save the situation by agreeing with me how she is also angry cause she’s hungry, please, common sense, you don’t go “no no no! It’s different! You are happy angry, look at Vanessa, she’s is violent angry! She’s so scary!”

WHAT DA FUQ DUDE. YOU JUST MADE YOURSELF THE TARGET OF MY ANGER. CONGRATS.

Please, someone explain to me, how can anyone be a happy angry person!? Does this even makes sense?!

I was already controlling myself from snapping at any point of time by staying quiet, & you have to agitate me. Seriously? Was that a smart move? NO.

When you travel with a relatively large group of friends, you know that there are bound to be conflicts and disagreement. Please, learn to adapt and give in when there is a need to. I believe all of us, in one way or another, has given in to you almost all the times. & also, friends look out for each other, in this case, I’m talking about luggages. Yes, you are concern with your belongings (namely luggage here). All of us are concern about our belongings. But like I’ve said, we travel in groups, so we look out for each other. Please, don’t keep going “but my luggage is still there” and refuse to help the others with their luggage and just stand there doing nothing to help us and block our way. Seriously? Do you know how annoyed all of us got? That’s why every time we have to move our luggage, we always make you stand at the end of the line and ask you not to do anything. Do you now know why?

I could go on, but there’s too many things to list.

I have my excessive whinings moment that my friends around me have to endure too. I understand that I can get fucking unbearably whining and annoyance but the difference is, I know what I’ve done wrong.

I did this writings is to let all these stuff out of my mind once and for all, cause I do not want this to affect the way I treat our friendship. Like I’ve said, maybe you do not even notice all these stuff due to the way how we are from different background, and it is not your fault. If you happen to see this by any chance, please talk to me okay? I promise, I will sit down calmly with you, and let you know what I (or we) feel. I want to deal with this calmly because (like I’ve said) you are a nice great friend, but you do not realise what’s going on.

;)

*phew, let it all out. Done bye.

Longest post I ever did ever since I’ve stop blogging.