Thr's actually tons of things to do now, but Im just so lazy/no mood to do it right now, or ever.
1. Learning journal for Shanghai trip 2. Clear up my room 3. Really start losing extra weights 4. Start on the competition brief if not I wont ever get back my 200bucks subsidy 5. Sleep early & lose the panda eyes
Okay, only 5 points currently but still, its kind of alot. 1stly, if I start on my learning journal now, I might as well never. Cos once school reopens, I will have not enough time. Don't ask me how I know, I just know alright. You think life in nafa is a breeze, well, you havent experience the life yet, so how the fuck would you know? Ohplease, don't tell me "OH? i thought its all about drawing only?" Fuck la. If it's all about drawing I won't be in 3D design course, I would be in fine arts taking western painting or somewhat similar. I had enough of people assuming things about my course. They just assume I have an easy life in nafa, & that it's so carefree. Right. If it is so carefree, I wouldnt have to lose many nights of sleep over my assignments & assessments. Look @ my panda eyes. You know what, Im not the worse case. @ least I do catch some sleeps (1 or 2 hours) when nearing assessment, I have friends who stayed up all night just to finish & perfect their work. Let's just say that Im not tough enough to stay up all night trying 100% to perfect my work. Yes, I only try 90%, not 100%, if not I wouldnt have slept @ all.
Please don't tell me your poly/jc life is hard. Just bcos your life is screwed up doesn't mean others have it well. Kns, everybody's life is screwed up in one way or another ok. Do you have to work your ass out even during assessment period? No i dont think so, @ least you would have taken off or just skipped work. I don't skip work or take offs on my assessment period, cos you know why, i need money. I need money on my school work, i need money to help out with my family, i need money for everything alright. I don't have an easy life, so screw everyone who assume I have. Assume what you want, but you never know what I have been through, or my fam.
My parents have never been on a plane, okay. & when my parents send me off to shanghai @ the airport, one sentence hit me hard. I asked whr my dad was, & my mom replied, "watching how they check in lor, never been in plane before ma". That sentence is still stucked in my head right now.
My parents worrying abt money everyday. I don't like.
Okay, im actually crying while doing this entry. Gotta stop.
Friday, July 2, 2010, 4:55 PM