Its like.. no one knows of this blog existence, and I'm free to express myself in whatever ways I want.
Sometimes, I wonder, did I chose the correct path of my career? Yes I love exhibition design. & by exhibition design I meant, design/curating a museum. I love the idea of curating. & I would love to be a curator. Its a fine line between a curator, and a designer I think. Sometimes, in yr 3 doing our FYP, we get criticism from lecturers like this "are you a fine artist, or are you a designer". The question is, can't I be both?
At the end of my 3rd year doing Diploma, I find myself at a cross road. Should I get a degree in fine arts, or should I get a degree in spatial design? In the end, I chose spatial design for the fear of not getting into fine arts successfully.
The thing is, it's such a huge jump to suddenly decide that I should change my direction, and head into the fine arts world, and this, this is scary. I'm never a failure, I never fail in something which I want badly. Never mind about academics, I know I'm a failure in it, cos I don't put in any effort in it at all, I admit. However, doing art/design has been my goal, my dream, and honestly, I have never fail in achieving my dreams.
Therefore, when I have to make a decision of changing my route, I weighed my options, and I choose to let go of fine arts due to the fear of failing to get into it.
Sometimes, I wonder, what would I have achieve, if I pursue this dream.
Nevertheless, having attend 2 weeks of school for Spatial design, I have already felt enlighten, and I feel that, for the coming 9 months, I will have an enriching journey.
Thursday, November 24, 2011, 11:03 AM